Friday, July 06, 2007

Bad Day

To quote R.E.M. its been a bad, please don't take a picture. The problem with this particular day is that it started out pretty much like every other day starts. Get up, get my ass ready for work, go to work, blah blah blah. Perhaps that is where the day went bad. The fact that it is just like every five days out of seven in my life. This is Sarte's Nausea come to life, and staring back at me from the mirror as I struggle to get the right contact into the right eye. Certain things in my life have stopped, others are just pottering along heedless of anything else, and others are raging out of my control. Problem is, I cannot tell which is which. What has stopped? What is out of my control? Mostly, it feels like it is all out of my control, and that is very disturbing. Some things in life are just not meant to be. What these things are I have no real idea. Perhaps we all get our reward in the end. Maybe we get what we deserve (I, for one, certainly hope I do not get what I deserve). The days run together like small streams into a large river off they go, and not much can stop them. One follows the other like B follows A. Then again maybe that is the point, maybe days are supposed to all run together into a great big blur that at the end you call your life.

6 comments:

Lindsay said...

I'm sorry you had a bad day. It actually sounds really bad. Maybe even a little bit worse than studying for the Bar. Maybe just a smidge. Sucks. Sorry. Not that you'd accept help, but if you need anything, let me know.

Lindsay said...

REM is my favorite band of all time. Just saying.

Anonymous said...

poor you...the sameness of your days is too much for you? You are extraordinarily lucky; you have a job, I assume a place to live, and people who seem to care about you. Perhaps you should stop being so self indulgent and be thankful for the things you have in your life, rather than bemoaning your fate. Everything is with your control; clearly you prefer to let life pass you by so you can complain about the unfairness of it all.

The Grand Inquisitor said...

hmm never said life was unfair. of course it is. that is the nature of life. i guess it could be worse i could live in New Jersey. oh and by the by if you don't like my "self-indugent" dribble. please, please, please, do me a favour, and don't read it. finally what is fate for but to bemoan?

Cynnie said...

you reply to a fucking Anonymous ??
you've NEVER replied to me ...ever!

Lindsay said...

Maybe he'd reply if we started saying really mean things. :-D